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I don't use this thing... [Monday
December 18th, 2006 at 2:44pm]
Blah, I don't use this thing much. I feel odd...

I'm stressed, I want to murder myself sometimes...

What more isn't there to love sometimes?
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Bah... [Sunday
July 9th, 2006 at 11:49am]
So, like, I really hated my job for awhile there. It sucked royally. But, I've made a friendship with the cook there and even though he is a pervert, he does give me something to laugh about. And, I had a really great day at work til Melissa walked in there and complained about every little thing. Bah, screw it all, can't ever just have a "Good Day" at IHOP. I made 52 dollars though, and noticing what I spent yesterday with Keiko, I made up the entire amount. Which is awesomeness.

God, POTC2, was the best ever! DEAR GOD! WHY DID IT HAVE TO END LIKE THAT! /cries
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Yesterday [Tuesday
July 4th, 2006 at 11:15pm]
[ mood | touched ]

Yesterday was interesting.

So, Sunday Night I went to Cody's like I normally do, but no one was there. *DUN DUN DUN* It was an empty house! But, that was because parents went to go get the brother of Cody, Corey. (Dear god the names are scary >.>) Anyways, so, yeah, we got there, and like, we walk in, and I'm all like, no one here o.O!?

He is like, aye...that it is *sneaky eyed look*



*RING* Phone...his mom, who else, so I am thinking to myself, JESUS, the woman is like knowing of every little thing! GOD! She tells him that they are at the airport in Tampa. That's nice. He get's off the phone. And then he goes ahead and cleans up alittle, I'm lying around (I just worked). He does the same thing again...

*Sneaky eyed look*



*RING!* Now, me and cody are thinking to ourselves, WTH!? And he answers, it's his brother wondering where there mom is. So, he calls mom, tells her where he is. It's all good.

*Forgets the sneaky eyed look*



*RING* GEEZ DAMNIT! >.> Answers, "yeah!?" His mom, "we are leaving now, traffic isn't to bad so we should be there in an hour or so."

"That's nice"

Do more random things around the house.



*BARK* Damn Dog >.> Cody lets the dogs out, the cat wants attention then, so gives Kalia (Pronounced Callie, he named her when he was little) and then sits around, watches t.v. *Sneaky Eyed Look*

*Pounce, Tickle, Kiss*


It's them. They are home, how nice.

So, then, we go to bed. Next day, his mom has his brother set up on a date, then we were all going to go up to Lake Mirror and watch fireworks. So, Cody, me, and Corey go shopping for awhile around town, EB games, game zone, Walmart, stuff like that. Then come home. Me and Cody are playing with our new Game Boy Micro, that we bought together (I like how things become "Ours" now ^^) and then Cody's manager calls him in to do 3 hours worth of dough for Little Ceasers.

So, he goes, I'm stuck at there house, watching this interseting reality show, where people are in pods and cannot come out and get experiments done on them from a talking computer named Val, (the show is named Solitary, mind you) and it's interesitng. So, then, they leave to go to Outback, where I stay at there house. So, I decide to take a shower. It's thundering pretty bad, but I go anyways. As I'm in the shower, the flipping lights go out, and I'm like great ; ; But, they came back on, only, they came on really slowly >.> Like a person did it or something. So, I'm standing, in a shower, screaming for Cody, thinking it is him, in a house that isn't even mine! So, I get out, finally, and go watch more of that show, when cody comes in. And We kiss, and while that happens, his mother calls...she knows things too well, and he takes a shower. (Other things happen, random conversations, I don't feel like talking about all that). And, every single time we get intimate or cute, she calls. So, we leave.

Then we go to lake mirror, where there is this really nice coffee house (straight rip off of starbucks) where we get some drinks and watch the really pretty fireworks. It was really cool how me and Cody go to stand back and hug each other to watch them too. <3 Then, me and cody go get gas in the car, and go to Wally world, where we look for a game, but, end up getting him a new Keyboard, mouse, and speaker set. We also talked about a couple of really nice camcorders there that me and cody saw. He has decided to buy a pretty nice blue cheap one there when he gets his paycheck for us. I've never had any home videos, and he hasn't either. So, why not start now, right?

So, then, i watched some of resident evil, then went to sleep. Then, we went home next day. Yay, there was my day.

It was fun too, all action packed. Now, my computer has been reformatted, and I can't log in to Myspace to do stuff. /sigh. Oh well.


<3 Sam

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Keiko [Saturday
July 1st, 2006 at 10:48pm]
Melissa gave me Monday, Tuesday, AND Friday off! So I can go with you guys! Yay!

Call me later to tell me like if anything else is going on, or maybe we can hangout the whole day and what not.

See yaz
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Keiko [Thursday
June 22nd, 2006 at 11:15pm]
Hi keiko! You called my phone, but I was ofcourse working. Whatcha need!? Call me tomorrow, preferably before 3, since I don't go to work til then, and I work 3-10p.m. Just so you know.

<3 Sam
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Mercury Rev-Secret for a song [Tuesday
June 20th, 2006 at 10:09pm]
Dawn brought a wild light, back into her tired eyes,
Like violets, opening her eyelids to the light,
Oh she was golden, I caught her still glowing,
I told you where we're goin' girl,
We're off for a dark country ride

I'll tell you a secret, I'll sell you a secret for a song,
Some day I'll tell you and take you back home where you belong

All the leaves are falling, Two suns are slowly rising,
I'll take you where the morning star burns just for you,
My dark country bride

I'll tell you a secret, oh I'll sell you a secret for a song,
I'll give you my soul, babe, an one day you'll give me yours

Oh I'll tell you a secret, I'll sell you my secret for a song,
I'll give you my soul, babe, an one day you'll give me yours

I'll tell you a secret, I'll sell you my secret for a song,
Some day I'll tell you and take you back home where you belong

This song is also on a car commercial, it has a really good beat and stuff. Good song.
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Is it suppose to be this way? [Sunday
June 18th, 2006 at 11:54am]
What happened to me? Why have I been so quiet around things. Melissa was telling the others that I was evil in a playful way, but then she looked at me and asked, "Why are you so quiet and sweet now? You used to never be that way?"

So now, I'm quiet AND sweet? I just read your post too Keiko. And I was thinking...I miss that companionship with Crash as well...but, not Crash herself. Sometimes, I need a new friend.

Honestly, all my friends seem to be gone. And at work, I feel so weird because I feel like everyone talks about me. I just try to ignore it. Melissa still has that sarcastic tone that she has with everyone. It really pisses everyone off around her. I just learned not to deal with it. And why is suddenly everyone so dead set on me trying to learn the drawer!? The other girls have never used it, and Melissa wants me to use the thing...

/sigh. I didn't like work again yesterday. I really need to talk to Melissa about some of this. I hate rush time ; ; everyday at 7:00 p.m. there is this mess of people that come in. And, it's still only Sunday. I think alot of people will come along today and go to have dinner again. I really only had one table yesterday. I was suppose to have Three, but one we use to put our drinks on and the other one I never even used. There was way to many people there today, and everyone was complaining about it. And I felt so stupid.

Plus, if these people understand, I make alot more tips then what they think. I'll need to talk to Melissa about this if I get another problem like this.

I feel so lonely...and I realized I am quite lonely. I really hope I get ONE day off to be with Cody this week. His birthday is Thursday, and I will need to go up to the mall on Tuesday to get him his gift. I need Cody in my life, but I wish I could spend some time with friends who I can just hang out with. But, it seems like I can't, or everyone is busy, and with work now, it really sucks. Should I complain? I don't know...but, I don't think it is my fault.

>.> I really don't want to go to work today, working 4-10 tonight. and, it really sucks because I think I'm going to have a bigger section today. If that happens, well... I might just cry >.<

Also, being in a freezer is scary. It's also very cold >.>

I have four hours. I have to go. Byez

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All the movies I've seen, which have you seen from the list? [Friday
June 16th, 2006 at 2:21pm]
ones with a < at the end I own.
(x) Rocky Horror Picture show<
(x) Jurassic Park<
(x) Jurassic Park 2
(x) Jurassic Park 3
(x) Grease
(x) Pirates of the Caribbean The Curse of the Black Pearl<
(x) Starsky and Hutch
(x) Neverending Story
(x) Airplane
(x) The Princess Bride
(x) Napoleon Dynamite
(x) Saw
(x) White Noise
(x) 50 First Dates
(x) Scream
(x) Scream 2
(x) Scary Movie
(x) Scary Movie 2
(x) American Pie
(x) American Pie 2
(x) Resident Evil I
(x) Resident Evil 2
(x) Finding Nemo<
(x) 13 Ghosts
(x) The Grinch
(x) I,Robot<
(x) Universal Soldier
(x) Dumb & Dumber
(x) Halloween
(x) The Ring
(x) The Ring 2
(x) Practical Magic
(x) Chicago<
(x) From Hell
(x) Hellboy
(x) Child's Play
(x) Bride of Chucky
(x) Gothika
(x) Nightmare on Elm Street
(x) Sixteen Candles
(x) Bedazzled
(x) ET
(x) X-3: The Last Stand
(x) Cruel Intentions<
(x) Lord of the Rings: The Fellowship of the Ring (LOTR dork and proud.)
(x) Lord of the Rings: The Two Towers<
(x) Lord of the Rings: The Return of the King
(x) Hitch
(x) Star Wars Episode I: The Phantom Menace
(x) Sound of Music
(x) The Terminator
(x) Shrek<
(x) Shrek 2
(x) Titanic
(x) The Sixth Sense
(x) Princess Diaries
(x) A Christmas Story
(x) Pulp Fiction<
(x) The Nightmare Before Christmas<
(some) The Crow
(x) Wayne's World
(x) Edward Scissorhands
(x) Elf<
(x) Willy Wonka & The Chocolate Factory
(x) Beetlejuice<
(x) Romeo and Juliet<
(x) Bring It On
(x) Dr. Strangelove Or How I Came To Love the Bomb
(x) Monty Python and the Holy Grail<
(x) CaddyShack
(x) Austin Powers, International Man of Mystery<
(x) Austin Powers, The Spy Who Shagged Me<
(x) Austin Powers, Goldmember<
(x) School of Rock<
(x) Clueless
(x) The Matrix<
(x) The Animatrix<
(x) The Matrix Reloaded<
(x) The Matrix Revolutions<
(x) Drumline<
(x) King Arthur<
(x) Men In Black<
(x) Men in Black 2
(x) House on Haunted Hill (New Version)<< own it
(x) Interview with a Vampire<
(x) Queen of the Damned<
(x) Clue<
(x) The Corpse Bride<
(x) Independence Day<
(x) The Man in the Iron Mask<
(x) The Count of Monte Cristo
(x) Moulin Rouge<
(x) The Mummy<
(x) The Mummy Returns<
(x) The Scorpion King
(x) The Mask <
(x) The Phantom of the Opera (New Version) <
(x) Secret Window<
(x) The X Files (Fight the Future)<
(x) Kill Bill <
(x) Kill Bill 2 <
(x) Final Fantasy: The Spirits Within
(x) Final Fantasy VII: Advent Children<
(x) The Lion King<
(x) Aladdin<
(x) Jimmy Neutron<
James Bonds (21 in all, i've seen these ones.)
(x) From Russia with Love
(x) Goldfinger
(x) Thunderball
(x) You only live twice
(x) Diamonds are Forever
(x) Live and Let Die
(x) THe man with the Golden Gun
(x) The Spy who Loved Me
(x) For your eyes only
(x) A view to a kill
(x) Goldeneye
(x) Tomorrow Never Dies
(x) The World is not Enough
(x) Die another Day <

I watch too many movies >.>
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Hmm [Thursday
June 15th, 2006 at 1:18pm]
I got another social security check auto deposited in my checking account today. I think it's the last one since they were a month behind. If I get another one, I'll have to call them. Though, getting those checks would be helpful to go to school and stuff.

So, I've been thinking. I really want my own place. Somewhere where I can live on my own. Or have a Cody with me, it would be enjoyable. I just started thinking about all the expenses down the line, Food, TV, Electricity, water, yadda yadda yadda. Then you have the actual rent, car insurance, I am thinking about getting life insurance (Yes, I'm thinking about all that stuff). Plus, if the car broke something, or if I got sick. What if I did get another pet? Then I realized...

Screw it. I don't have THAT much money. Even with me working >.>

Made me wonder though, if I had someone like Cody with me, and we were really careful, it could work out. I could live off of raman noodles for awhile. That would be pretty sweet. /sigh. Then I was thinking, about my furniture and his, and how it could be placed in an apartment...

I really want to get out, don't i!?
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This one is even more like me.... [Wednesday
June 14th, 2006 at 7:01pm]

You Have a Melancholic Temperament

Introspective and reflective, you think about everything and anything.

You are a soft-hearted daydreamer. You long for your ideal life.

You love silence and solitude. Everyday life is usually too chaotic for you.

Given enough time alone, it's easy for you to find inner peace.

You tend to be spiritual, having found your own meaning of life.

Wise and patient, you can help people through difficult times.

At your worst, you brood and sulk. Your negative thoughts can trap you.

You are reserved and withdrawn. This makes it hard to connect to others.

You tend to over think small things, making decisions difficult.

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June 14th, 2006 at 6:57pm]
You Are Rain

You can be warm and sexy. Or cold and unwelcoming.
Either way, you slowly bring out the beauty around you.

You are best known for: your touch

Your dominant state: changing

I always thought about that...
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So, yeah [Wednesday
June 14th, 2006 at 2:51pm]
[ mood | chipper ]

I got a job. I work at IHOP with our old Girl Scout Leader Ms. Melissa. I work tomorrow 5-10, due to the factor I'm just starting and stuff. Alittle nervous, but I atleast know Melissa, and that works out fine.

I miss my kitten. I still feel like it's all my fault, but all the people reassures me something, SOMETHING, else was wrong. Its just confusing to me. Mom is getting her creamated and put into a small urn. I only had her one week. /sigh.

I don't like work pants >.> I couldn't find any that were really a good fit at wally world, and I need some. I also have to wear a tie...I just bought a clip on for right now, she said that I shouldn't have one, but for right now it was fine. They had me fill out all the usual paper work, but most of it when the girl was looking through it she would look and go, "Umm...I don't know what this is really, but sign it." The other guy signing stuff just signed away. But, I guess I'm just one of those people who has to read briefly everything that comes my way. It's just my nature and stuff. One day you could sign your life away if you are not careful about it.

In any event, I will just have to wait til tomorrow. I guess it's normal to be a bit nervous, also since Melissa will not be able to work during the night hours this week. And a Drug Test...Stupid Drug test >.>

Anyways...Everything was good, and now I got the job. I just miss my kitten...I guess I sort of realize atleast that I didn't have her for the longest period of time...so I wasn't DEATHLY attached to her.

All I now need is a license...


Atleast I can get paid every day, and now will have money to buy presents for peeps birthdays that were/are this month.

And have money to see Pirates of the Carribean (sp?) too!


Btw, I used this icon before, but, I really like this icon, do you? I got the base from basicbases</span>

I Should go now >.>


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She's gone [Tuesday
June 13th, 2006 at 3:11am]
My cousin woke me up about 45 minutes ago and said that he didn't think she was breatheing. When I held her, she was still warm but lifeless in my arms. Everyone woke up and they tried to stimulate her back. But it was too late.

I can't believe this. Everyone says it wasn't my fault. But. I'm the one who stepped on her, it's all my fault. Why does everything have to leave me. I hate myself for this, and I don't want anymore animals right now. I've only had her for one week. She was fine, energetic. Everyone says something was wrong with her before hand. And somehow I end up stepping on her and for whatever reason trigger her maybe mishap. I hate myself. She was only a few weeks old. I'm a murder and I hate it. Now what do I do to atone for this? I know it's an accident, but she was so helpless. I want her back so bad.
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So sad ; ; [Monday
June 12th, 2006 at 7:21pm]
I got home from Cody's today with my cousin and my kitten was fine and playing. But while i was walking, she came at my feet and made me trip, resulting in me stepping on her hind. The cat then got really sick, and acted like she didn't want to walk and stuff. We took her to a vet and it seems that there are no broken legs and stuff, but, there is alot of swellen around her bottom. It's so big and it scares me to death. I feel so bad for her and I couldn't stop crying for her. She was in so much pain and I know it was an accident it just scared the hell out of me. So, now she could have a hernia, but, she got pain medicine and is now sleeping in my bathroom. I just REALLY hope its nothing, and the swelling goes down over the night time. God, I feel so evil doing something like that >.> I never want to hurt any animal. And even accidents scares me to death, it makes me wonder how some people can just kill animals. God, I really hope she gets better. She is just way to tiny and fragile for this kind of thing.
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... [Saturday
June 10th, 2006 at 1:40pm]
I need a license...

I need a job...

It's the only two things i need right now.

Damn, this really does suck ; ;

In any event, for those who care. Everything else is fine. But, I'm going to maybe stop updating this journal, and start a new one. I really think it would be cool to have everyone I know reading about not this stuff from all the High School Stuff, but, to have a more adult one. That way I can really have a diffrence. And see a diffrence. I hope you guys understand.
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